Are you in a season of life where you’ve lost your appetite for God? For His church? For family? For people? For ministry? The things that used to interest you no longer interest you anymore.
Hannah was a woman who literally lost her appetite.
1 Samuel 1:7, “So it was, year by year, when she went up to the house of the Lord, that she provoked her; therefore she wept and did not eat.”
I homeschool my son and one thing that drives me crazy is his constant desire for food. That sounds bad as I typed it. But literally all day long, “I want a snack. I’m hungry.” I’m not exaggerating. Our pantry makes a noise, so when he opens up the door I can hear it from wherever I am in the house. Next comes the refrigerator. I hear both pantry and refrigerator door shut. “Mom, there’s nothing to eat!” Ten minutes later, repeat. “Son, what was there 10 minutes ago is still there. The magic food fairy has not yet come to our house to refill our pantry and refrigerator.” (I’m the magic food fairy 🙂 )
Well, in relation to our walk with God and our spiritual growth, the same is true when reading the bible. Now, most of the time my pantry is not empty as he so exaggerates. It’s just that what he wants, the snacks, are not in there.
When reading our bible, there’s always something to take away from it, but maybe not exactly what we were looking for. We are looking for that certain “thing” that we can kind of throw in the face of someone. Do you know what I’m talking about?
We take a machete to God’s Word, thinking it doesn’t pertain to our situation, and miss what God has placed right in front of us. We butcher it up, search it out to only look for the “snacks”, something just to get us by, never filling up on the meat.
Hannah had some“thing” in her face every day. Peninnah. Elkanah had two wives: Peninnah and Hannah. Here we go with the trap of comparison, “Peninnah had children, but Hannah had no children.” (1 Sam. 1:2) Comparison is the thief of joy! (Theodore Roosevelt) There’s nothing new under the sun (Ecc. 1:9)! This has been going on for a while.
During this time, barrenness was considered a disgrace. It was very important to carry on the name, have descendants, and raise up workers for the field.
For Hannah to not be able to have children, and have someone who could have children, and all of her children right in front of her face every day, I’m sure, was disheartening. Not being able to have children in and of itself is enough to make one lose their appetite. But then see the other woman popping out babies left and right, living in your house, is unimaginable.
“…although the Lord had closed her womb. So it was, year by year, when she went up to the house of the Lord, that she provoked her; therefore she wept and did not eat.” (1 Sam. 1:6-7)
We see why Hannah didn’t eat now. She lost her appetite for food because she was being provoked DAILY! Home usually is a safe haven, but her home was where all of her defeat was taking place. It was right in front of her eyes every single moment of every single day.
What does your situation look like? Have you lost your appetite for God because of someone “provoking you”? Have you lost your appetite for God because of ONE PERSON?! Think about that for a minute.
One person affecting the rest of your Christian life. That one person potentially affecting where you’ll spend eternity because you allowed it. Don’t let ONE person hold you back from the abundant life Christ has intended for you!
Jesus didn’t let that ONE hold him back. He was provoked in the wilderness by the Enemy.
Hannah became focused on what she didn’t have. What is holding you back? What are you hungering for?
Hannah eventually ate. Her situation did not change right away, but she did change, through prayer.
I will be sectioning off this portion of Scripture into a few different blogs. I hope you’re able to follow along through these verses!